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Growing up in love

Growing up in love (2016)

Growing up in love is Blue Macaw's third album - a progressive folk-rock song cycle covering the joys and pains of becoming your own person, chasing your dream, finding the one you love and walking through life with this person.

The songs are linked seamlessly without a break, like a folk version of Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon. Moving away from the hard rock elements of previous albums, this album is more inspired by Bob Dylan, Joni Mitchell and Jeff Buckley with jazz and classical influences. The mood ranges from folk, rock, folk rock, jazz fusion, twelve tone music to experimental a capella.

Skillful nylon-string guitar playing is mixed with harmonica and classical singing, with touches of flute, electric guitar, keyboard, drums, bass and reflective lyrics that tell a story from start to finish.

A perfect CD to sit down to for 45 minutes!

Tracklist:

1. My first day at work (1:19)
2. Postcard from Québec (3:45)
3. Coffee at Fed Square (4:14)
4.Is this the end? (3:29)
5. Decision Time (3:06)
6. Tale of Three Cities (3:17)
7. Empty Bed (3:56)
8. Internet Blues (4:12)
9. Vow (2:08)
10. When did I grow up? (4:21) | 11. Always there for me (2:10)
12. Little Poppy Seed (3:50)
13. Where do I go from here? (3:46).

1. My first day at work (1:19)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

My first day at work
I found an unexpected perk
You were waiting for me.

I remember the fear I bore
Sweat flew out of every pore
But somehow I knew
I’d take the steps
Have no regrets
I passed the interview

I’d turned up on the first day all nervy
I was half an hour early
I took a stroll outside,
Before I finally ascended.

And then in reception I see.
The new girl with her back to me,

You were out of bounds
It was quickly over
And you didn’t even notice.

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2. Postcard from Québec (3:45)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

I went to a concert,
I thought of you.
A spare seat next to me,
I thought of you.
We were friends
And you went away far too soon…
But I thought of you.

I didn’t see it coming,
And I wouldn’t see it through
It would have sent me running
If it came from you,
But we were only friends
And you went away far too soon…
But I thought of you.

Flying away to the other side of Earth
You sent me a postcard from your country of birth
The beautiful, winter streets of old Québec

You were thinking of me too.

I withdrew all those thoughts
I didn’t know you’d return
I hoped secretly in my heart
That for me you did burn.

I’ll always keep a seat next to me for you.
‘Cause I’m thinking about you too.

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3. Coffee at Fed Square (4:14)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

Today I reveal my love for you
Between exams, but still it’s fine.
I do believe I have the time
To have a coffee, or maybe two.

I might have let the secret slip
To one or two of my friends.
I work up my courage as they flip
Text messages to my end.

We drink too much good coffee.
My phone beeps constantly as we walk.
The time arrives for you to leave
And we’ve said nothing beyond small talk.

On the train away, into seats we drop
I blurt out the words: “I really like you.”
Your arm is around me for just two stops
And you leave me on the train in shock and rue.

On the way back I wondered just what I’d done,
For you were, all of a sudden, my special one.
I planned it all, but returned a little daunted.
My very first love requited.

You were, all of a sudden, my special one.
I opened up and saw the shining sun.
All of a sudden, you’re my special one.
And I am done.

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4.Is this the end? (3:29)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

Lost,
Angry,
Scared,
Lonely,
Confused,
Sad,
Drained,
Empty,
Separate.
Is this the end?

A few false starts
As we learn how to love,
Yet it all comes apart.

Is it my fault you feel this way?
Is it your fault I feel this way?
Are we looking at the same page?
Can I even justify my rage?

Are we too different?
Or am I looking too far ahead?
On this hot summer’s night,
Can we survive this fight,
That leaves me collapsed in a daze
And you alone on a train?

The long night will pass alone,
Morning comes, I will return home,
Wondering what I will say
And we will forgive each other
In the best possible way.

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5. Decision Time (3:06)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

It’s decision time
And it wracks my mind
Every year of mine.

Every year there comes a choice
to uproot my life.
Changing jobs and continents
Puts my wallet in strife.

When I set my life out on a page
It’s just one big, mad rollercoaster of change.
Half a foolish dream of young age
The other a battle just to earn a wage.

It’s decision time
And it wracks my mind
Every year of mine.

I’m staring into a precipice
That looks all deep and cold
That I want to sell all my dreams
Have some kids and just grow old.

It’s decision time.

But life is not that simple
And I know deep down inside
When I look at most other people
Their real selves they always hide.

So it’s decision time
Another mountain to climb
I could change my mind.
And just grow old.

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6. Tale of Three Cities (3:17)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

I'm in limbo.
I'm living in a city
and I'm waiting for the time to go home.
But where is home?
I'm moving from this city where I live,
back to where home used to be,
only for a month or so.

Australia is where I grew up fine
But I'm moving here to Germany to sing full-time.
Wiesbaden was my home until now
But I move from here to Augsburg
and I've barely seen the town

My girl is waiting there in Melbourne,
with my family, my best friends and my cat.
And though I'm there for a month or so, I've got to say, the time's so short, it's just not where I'm at.

So in short I'm confused, which home do I go?
Melbourne? Wiesbaden? Augsburg? No.
I'm trapped in limbo on the go.
Home will have to be where I am for a little while, I know.

It's a tale of three cities, a confusing time I see,
I move around like a pawn in a game of chess,
And I hope it doesn't happen too often to me
Because I feel so unstable, so impermanent and unfree.

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7. Empty Bed (3:56)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

I'm waking up alone and cold.
Your side of the bed is empty.
The mattress is undented.
There's nobody there to hold.
It's silent and I make coffee.
The TV’s on to keep me company.

Yesterday you were with me.
Today you are over the sea.
And I count down another day
of the many days you are away.

I try to keep my goals in sight.
I motivate myself to write.
I work and try to save my money.
I jog when it is sunny.

When I relax I watch a movie
And see my friends when we are free,
So that when I talk, or send you writing,
my life still sounds exciting.

I forget what it's like to hold you tight,
to have you with me when I sleep at night.
Sometimes my life with you feels like a dream
with so many miles, so many days, months and weeks in between.

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8. Internet Blues (4:12)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

Talking to the screen seems wrong,
Even with the ones we love.
But when you're away for so long,
Its all you can hold onto.

A thousand miles between you and me,
A camera and a million miles of cable
Connects you through a million people,
So that we can talk and see.
A million miles between you and me,
yet we can talk and see.

It seems so strange that normal life
Is conducted in this way,
When day is night and night is day.
When this world can be so close and bright
And yet so very far away.

We can see but we can't touch.
If I move from the camera, I disappear.
So easy to see, but hard to engage.
And you are more than just words on a page,
Or a voice in my ear.

It doesn't stop my loneliness
that stays with me all day.
I can't find something relevant to say,
because so many days pass
That I forget what I did last...
All I know is that I miss you.

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9. Vow (2:08)

Music by Christopher Busietta.
Lyrics: Modified version of Catholic wedding vows by various unknown authors.

I love you.
I take you to be my wife.
I promise to be true to you,
in good times and bad,
In sickness and in health.
All that I am I give to you.
All that I have I share with you.
I give you my hand and my heart
As I pledge my faith and love to you,
For all the days of my life.
Take this ring as a sign of my love and fidelity.
Keep it as a symbol of our unity and everlasting love for one another.

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10. When did I grow up? (4:21)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

When did I grow up? When came responsiblity
For this path I follow endlessly?
When did it become mine and mine alone?
Where did this audacity come from
To ask this girl to marry me?
When did I finally cotton on
That my father is sometimes wrong?

My aging heroes would be jealous of my youth,
But my mirror always tells the truth
And all this potential that I found
has to become substance now.
Right now.

I trained and planned my life just so,
To realise the iron was hot many years ago
Waiting for the right time to discern
And never feeling its burn.

Everything I planned has fallen down,
Because I have grown and lived and laughed.
Success is something different to me now
As my desires take a different path

Where once a desperate need for solid affirmation
That I was important enough for world domination
Has broken down to smaller goals.
From an outward focus to my inner soul.

When did I grow up?
When came responsiblity
For this path I follow endlessly?
When did it become mine and mine alone?
Where did this audacity come from
To ask this girl to marry me?
When did I finally cotton on
That my father is sometimes wrong?

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11. Always there for me (2:10)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

My baby,
You're always there for me.
My baby,
You're always there for me.

When I'm restless,
When I'm blue,
When I'm lonely,
I think of you.
When I'm happy I just can't wait until I'm home with you.

My baby,
You're always there for me.
My baby,
You're always there for me.

I don't care if my dreams won’t fly,
(That doesn't mean that we won't try)
But still I know that I can be happy
If I'm just with you.

My baby, I'll be there for you.
Because when I'm with you
nothing can go wrong.
I'll always be there for you.

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12. Little Poppy Seed (3:50)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

Little poppy seed baby
in your mother’s belly.
Growing steadily
And on your way.

The news was met with shock,
with tears and maniacal laughter.
Not like a Hollywood shot,
Where everything is uncomplicated.

I’ve expected your arrival for a long time,
I thought I was prepared,
But when the moment arrived,
I was still caught unaware.

I have no idea
how to make the three of us happy.
Already looking forward many years,
towards challenges and tears.

Yet I don’t even know
as you grow and grow,
how to keep you alive,
Until you’re ready to come outside.
Your poor mum already tired,
She needs strange things to eat,
And she’ll have pain from the inside.
Until the day we meet.

I will hold you in my arms,
and love you and keep you from harm,
My little poppy seed.
My little poppy seed.

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13. Where do I go from here? (3:46)

Music and lyrics by Christopher Busietta.

Sometimes I find it hard to see clear
The road ahead is blurred but very near.
Sometimes, it's clear within my mind,
But sometimes I feel I'm riding blind.

Where do I go from here?
Oh, where do I go from here?
The road is always near.
But where do I go from here?
Nobody knows.

Fatigue can never slow this course
And there's no time to feel remorse.
I follow many's footsteps frozen
and yet my path must still be chosen.

Where do I go from here?
Oh, where do I go from here?
The road is always near.
But where do I go from here?
Nobody knows.

Another year for me to choose.
And all I have is time to lose.

Where do I go from here?
I'm on the road to nowhere.
Onward to where I go.
But I'm riding blind.
Where do I go? Where do I go?
Nobody knows.

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